Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Culture and and me

Culture is a hefty word. We the common people whose lives are so engrossed with their work and families have little time to think about their culture and tradition until and unless there is an occassion or puja or when someone does something off the path. That is the time when we become so conscious about out culture which are so much linked up with our lives that we forget that there it is..sitting all over us...controlling us and looking over us!!
For  me culture is the day to day lifestyle I lead...the very routine that I follow everyday of my life. That is so me...that is so intertwined with my character that living off the routine is beyond imagination!!
But a girl's life is a tricky one. It starts in a way and and then takes a u turn in between. Last week my friend was talking about this to me. All this my my getting married situation has left her speechless at first. That day she told me that she is scared of all the changes and that's why she was so shocked with my news. The pleasant news of mine gets some times teary welcome when I think of leaving all my friends and all the homely comforts behind. Someone has said so truly  that to get one you must sacrifice some.
I don't know what the future awaits for me...but all the sadness and all the tears that I have felt for a time are now gone. And I feel bliss. I feel so loved that sometimes it gives me a fright to live a life with a bit of less love in it. I wish and I hope that things will always be the same and that particular face will always bring this same warmth and smile in my heart.

Sunday, October 20, 2013

My first grocery shopping

Have you ever seen a pearl before its use in any ornament?? In a box wrapped with cotton balls so nothing can harm it...even there can not be any scratch on it!! I am raised like this from the first day I was born. Yes...I have struggled, I have struggled a lot..but from the perspective of education. I have eaten what was given on my plate, wore what was given to me without any question and without any objection. In short I could have been an ideal girl that any famlily or parent could have wished for. But still they were not happy because they thought I could have been better in  terms of obedience as of course I used to be a little ziddy....in terms of what I want around myself. The problem aroused how I should keep my books or which color of curtain I want on my window...all silly matters.
My sister on the other hand are really active. She started doing grocery shopping from the age of 10 and played second fiddle to my mother in keeping the house to its place. She is an expert cook and knows almost everything where the household things are kept. So despite me being the elder sister she played all the duties of an elder daughter of the family with respect and with perfection.
But days are not the same always. Sometimes mood swings take place and we tell some bad things to close people that we should not. But words are words. Once told can never be taken back and impact is made permanently. That's what happened with my sister. And I was almost to tears that she could tell me those words and thought that I should at least try to do my own things that I need rather depending on others to complete them.
That day I needed some necessary things for my diet. My juice was finished today and the nuts they were also not in stock. The curds are not there and I needed raisins and dates for evening snacks. So I took my money and headed towards the market. But then I did not know that where to buy those things. I saw the juice curtain while coming home the previous day. Then I queried my mother about the local shop to buy nuts and all that and headed toward that. And yes I bought them. I only skipped the dates and bought raw nuts instead of roasted. But its okay....I will learn while doing!!
But what I want to talk about the feeling that I got while shopping all on my own. I can't put into words or compare it to anything because it was so different and so special. Other times mother or sister would forget somethings but I took everything that I needed and I was satisfied with myself that I then and there decided to do my things all by myself. Of course you can earn money and that also gives you an immense pleasure but if you can use them as you decide and not depend on others for even a glass of water. That is when you become full independent. That is when you feel free..!!